[layedgebiamma]

I wanted to post my experience in relation to the idea of the brain and the mind, or conscious awareness, existing as seperate. I do not believe they are seperate, but i believe the mind does indeed cast the projection of the form of our brain, and body. I practice a state of being that realises this, and can suspend the vital signs of my body, with my intent or will. i first heard of the teaching long ago, when i read of a Tibetan buddhist practice that entailed control of the body's life signs with the will of the body.

Last year i was having a heart attack and was terrified i was going to die. I realised that my heart was being cast to form from the knowledges i had within myself. It is also an art of Qi-Gong to visualise actively the projection of the body and align to the inner and outer manifestations. Anyways I realised that my body is merely a mental projection, that I can cast the needs and purposes of the heart with my mind's eye. I said to myself I can live with no heart at all, like a spirit and still retain consciousness. Fearful for my life as i was I went to the machine that reads my vitals, and they hooked me up. I sat looking at the machine as i felt the pressure in my heart, and the knowingness that my heart was teetering on the brink of failure. as i looked at the machine i felt the air being pushed out of my body, and I gasped for air i couldnt find.

The machine read flat-line. And my body panicked. At first it was just a few seconds before my heart started again. I ripped the machine off my body and sat staring at the nurse, who said the machine was malfunctioning. I knew differently. As I waited my heart continued, back and forth, starting and stopping, and I saw that every time it happened I could help my breathing. I realised i was projecting my experience. My breathing became easier through the process, every time. I started to anticipate the starting and stopping, and soon i could command it. With my growing confidence i would simply cast the projection, and say my heart will stop. and it would. I would continue however, still conscious, still breathing. i went for a walk then, calmer, and began practicing. Before I left the hospital the doctor actually told me i was dead, in a synchronous state of being.

I already knew that, and yet i knew my awareness alone was casting my body, and had denied the body of humanity's knowledge, for my own. i was elated. The gasping stopped and was replaced with a sensation much easier to deal with, although not entirely comfortable. I started and stopped my heart a great many times that day, and declared my body as going through a transitional phase of man to spirit form. I looked in the mirror in practice and saw the transition in perceptual alignment. my skin became ashen, and fluid, and as i focused on my form, i could watch it change. my skin was vibrating and in slight motion. i had practiced the art of bodily transformation, but had just started to perfect the form of spirit and still am. Ended up the police were called in a panic and picked me up to bring me back to the hospital, where i started again my heart and got released.

I figured i would share this in realtion to the idea that we exist seperately from the physical aspect of our being. I believe in my experiences in different states of being that we are both existing in oneness and in duality. I have seen realitty become united to singular consciousness, and be divided into duality, and i believe that both aspects create the whole, very much like a triange that can be seen as started from a single point and spanning into different vectors, and while still connected the apex, has branched off to go its own unique way. a multi-singularity.