[MightyMasc]

Trust me Kagyupa, your not the only unenlightened person around, given my amount of defilements. It does seem to me as a fellow sufferer of mental ill health that you seem to be sliding into a period of low mood, perhaps a chat with your community mental health team or the US equivalent might be in order. I'm convinced that study and practice of the Dhamma can be extremely helpful for people with a psychiatric history but that doesn't mean we should neglect the bio-medical model in order to get us through to the point where we can rely less on medication and the like.