Hi TJ, Just curious, why are you externalizing your emotions? If all that you see are "emptiness", why are you creating "emptiness" in your mind? What's the purpose of creating "illusions" that you can defeat? Defeating illusions will only accomplish one thing, and that is defeating illusions. I have always wondered why people who love to say everything is "empty" are so fond of creating things to see and to feel in their mind.