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**broksaksaak** · 10-07-2010, 10:22 PM

Originally Posted by Truelotus It really would be very hard for me to go to a Theravadan teacher, it would be a two hour round trip drive.

I don't feel any different now that I have meditated for two years, and also giving up revenge, and just being as nice as I can, to follow the precepts, and not drinking alcohol, avoiding intoxicants. I am just wondering what I am doing wrong, that I don't feel even 1% liberated.

Hi Truelotus

You sound like you have some excellent teachers and excellent Dhamma resources.

As for not feeling even 1% liberated, I can only reply "keep practising".

That you have overcome fear and have some freedom from depression is inspiring to hear.

I enjoyed reading your routine and what sounded like a strong committment on your behalf.

Have you ever taken a holiday for a week or two to visit a monastery, dhamma community or do a retreat?

Kind regards

E

I guess you are right. I have got *some* control over depression and I used to get panic attacks every day, and now, let's see, it's been two years and two months since I've had one.

However, I don't feel liberated or having equanimity or joy.

Yes, I have thought of going on a retreat. I was considering going to Plum Village before we decided to go to Maui. I realize Plum Village would be Mahayana, but I consider myself at a basic, if not beginner level and any retreat would probably make my practice deeper. Another place I can hang out is the Vedanta meditation center. It is quite permissible to do Theravadan meditation there, and actually, Swamiji recommended it for me.

The main thing I like about Buddhism is that it is very logical, and so, as I say in a past life, being a scientist, it appeals to me.

Best,
True

10-07-2010, 10:22 PM	#26
broksaksaak Join Date Oct 2005 Posts 565 Senior Member	Originally Posted by Truelotus It really would be very hard for me to go to a Theravadan teacher, it would be a two hour round trip drive. I don't feel any different now that I have meditated for two years, and also giving up revenge, and just being as nice as I can, to follow the precepts, and not drinking alcohol, avoiding intoxicants. I am just wondering what I am doing wrong, that I don't feel even 1% liberated. Hi Truelotus You sound like you have some excellent teachers and excellent Dhamma resources. As for not feeling even 1% liberated, I can only reply "keep practising". That you have overcome fear and have some freedom from depression is inspiring to hear. I enjoyed reading your routine and what sounded like a strong committment on your behalf. Have you ever taken a holiday for a week or two to visit a monastery, dhamma community or do a retreat? Kind regards E I guess you are right. I have got some control over depression and I used to get panic attacks every day, and now, let's see, it's been two years and two months since I've had one. However, I don't feel liberated or having equanimity or joy. Yes, I have thought of going on a retreat. I was considering going to Plum Village before we decided to go to Maui. I realize Plum Village would be Mahayana, but I consider myself at a basic, if not beginner level and any retreat would probably make my practice deeper. Another place I can hang out is the Vedanta meditation center. It is quite permissible to do Theravadan meditation there, and actually, Swamiji recommended it for me. The main thing I like about Buddhism is that it is very logical, and so, as I say in a past life, being a scientist, it appeals to me. Best, True
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