Rake, I fully support your change or release of your belief. If there was a certainty then there wouldn't be all the different diverse paths available. You are doing what your heart and mind desires. By coming out and stating exactly what you decide your path to be you are coming to terms with it and are inviting the feedback you are receiving. This is a good thing, I do not know how many others have the same beliefs, but maybe this will allow others to realize that they are not alone. Walk the path you desire, not what you think others want you to do.