[wrefrinny]

many times i have tried to connect with my spirit guide. I meditate in hopes i will go to the astral plane and meet my guide or guides. I've meditated so far at least once or twice a day sometimes for more than 30 minutes.. I cannot seem to see anything life like just alot of colours moving around like clouds that come and go. sometimes i would see a pin hole bright white light come and go or move around.. i have seen no faces or objects. I feel as though when I listen to a meditation walk through that when the person says imagine a staircase or your own special place, i cannot see or imagine it.. sometimes the middle of my forehead hurts where my third eye is and when my eyes are closed and i am trying to quiet my mind it feels as though i am not looking through two eyes but one( third eye maybe?) i am new to all of this. i have been patient for months now and i do still have faith but have not experienced what others explain to me. my boyfriend says he travels to the astral plane and sees his guide(s) and walks around like it is a place he is in... does the astral plane look like earth or like something we have never seen or imagined before? when i am closing my eyes i find that they want to open after a while and flicker closed but i just refocus on keeping them shut. i have never heard voices before.. when you hear voices do they sound like someone is right beside you and does it sound like a voice other than your own? im a little bit frustrated because its been so long and ive seen or heard no results.. only one experience i have had where i was in a church at a friends viewing when they passed and i was praying in the church pews and what felt like a hard tap on my left shoulder occurred , i looked to my left no one was tapping me and it stopped then i continued praying and there it was again another tap.. i meditated since then but only till a week later during meditation did i not hear the words but only got them put in my head was " ezekiel and azrael " i did not know what those words were until i looked them up. still i say , i did not hear those words nor see anything they were just planted in my head with some importance and wouldnt leave.. i found ezekiel is in the bible, im still not sure why that was planted in my head but azrael made sense so i meditated and said was that you who tapped my shoulder in the church and again i got a tap on a shoulder.. i felt that was validation. azrael i found is the angel of death known to comfort by touching a person in a stressful time or time of loss. that gave me more faith in the astral plane and all the angels and guides i seek but still i have not seen. im not sure why i cannot picture things in my head like others do and im not sure why i am having such issues. i was told by a psychic who i paid that my chakras have been closed since child birth from my mothers negative energy and that mediation would not work and to stop meditating. she wanted me to pay her 680 dollars for products and meditations to heal myself so i could meditate again she said i would not meet my guide until they were healed. i feel as though she just wanted my money. how would i know myself if my chakras are closed and if they are how do i open them again without spending 680 dollars. im a student who cannot afford that. also is it true i cannot meditate till they are open? everything i have read and everything so far people have told me has not worked in successfully going to the astral plane and meeting my guide. i have faith though..still.. some people i hear can meditate the first time or not mean to travel to the astral plane and still go there.. i wish i had that luck ... what is my problem a little discouraged here. also.. i hear you are suppose to feel a vibration throughout your body..i havent experienced that also.. no lifelike images,no voices,no vibration...i dont understand. i have been patient for months..still patient but saddened by my lack of success.