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I've been feeling rather emotional. Moodswings & feeling heavy like on my head is how I would describe it. I don't know weather it's a spiritual thing or just me.

I felt I needed to open myself up spiritually, I know I've been blocking out my spiritual side, I haven't fully opened up to it. Like the door is open, but i'm still holding it a tad closed & not allowing it to come through. This morning I felt the urge to try and meditate, I've always failed at meditating, can never get my brain to shutup but this morning I felt like I had some success. I felt like I was in a trance, I started re-enforcing my protection, I always try & make sure my protection barriers are up. When meditating I could feel my head very slowly swaying from side to side like someone was trying to channel me & I couldn't control it, I opened my eyes & it was still happening. I closed my eyes and tried to listen, I heard my name being called not just with my ears but with my mind & then I bursted out crying because it sounded like my dear uncle who passed away when I was about 13. He holds a huge significance in my life. This would be the 2nd time I've felt him trying to communicate with me, but both times I've bursted out crying and ended up walking out because it's still very emotional.

I guess, I'm wondering if I really am chanelling correctly or if this is just all in my mind and all due to my current moodswings. & if my uncle really is trying to communicate with me how can I put aside the emotions so I can have a full moment with him instead of me rushing out & closing the connection. I know I am a very sensitive person, I feel for others very easily. I get very emotional when I sense others are going through tough times. Since I've started my spiritual discovery I do find myself feeling more humble towards others like I see past their exterior.