[borasolit]

lol!!! Funny i see this today... well usually i wallow in it for a while, then i talk it out - even if its only to myself!! Then i wake up in the mood that i will make today rock!!!

Like last night i had a huge fight with my boyf who has been stressing me out for a while, the fight was horrible but today i have a new lease on life and even though i will be R4000.00 short at the end of this month if he leaves tonight (which i think he just may) i feel incredibly positive and think that i will have a more positive and fulfilling lifestyle again. he is drenched in negativity and indifference... he constantly disses my beliefs and spirituality etc etc etc and i think without him good things will come again...

I dont get it he used to inspire me and make me more positive now he just drains the positivity and energy out of me...very sad when things go badly but its all in lifes lessons. Not sure i can see the lesson in this but it will come to me when i am ready. although maybe the lesson is actually for him... who knows.

Even when things seem hopeless talk it through and decide that all is well and is perfect