you guys are wonderful...of course you already knew that ...that is why we are all drawn here....we are all teachers and God's helpers here on earth. I would have focused on them then using my heart chakra surrounded them in a blue bubble. lol lol or I would have gotten a mirror and faced it outward faceing them....would have sent all that carrying on back to them..it would have unglued them and they would have stopped. lol my way is a little different but the intent would be the same .....lol lol I think Pagan is very correct that it is a fear of being wrong...more a fear of being made fun off or ridiculed or told I am stupid etc. This comes from a childhood thing. One of those you dont even realize you throw that wall up. I grew up with a stepfather who daily told us five kids we were stupid etc. I actually have an IQ of around 126 . lmao And probably if I be honest with myself I have my entire life worked from the be the best or the very best you can be at something or dont do it at all. Even the things I knew how to do without every being taught. Things I beleive I did in past lives that without looking you can just do it . I can cook it came natural but I read and tried things to be a really good cook or pick up a tool ...i knew how to use it and how to measure and go about it but I then would read the instructions or look up methods to be even better at it kind of stuff. i coudl do all the girls stuff sew, knit , crochet, cook, draw, paint etc....also a great deal fo the male things, . I am as comfortable knee deep in mud as I am in jeans and opearls. I coudl always see that it came from some deep rooted self analytical place of not wanting to be told I was inept or stupid . So I have always recognized this in myself. Because of this I always taught my children..just do the best that you are capable fo being. It doesnt matter if soemone else does it better than you , it only matters on the level that is your levell. I have mellowed and as I age I am more the just go with the flow if you F--- up just roll in the floor laughing. I wasnt looking that I was the one throwing the block up on this. Pagan remember when I did the gemstone reading for you that I sent to you...I then the next day tried to read someone else. Cant even remember who now ..The minute I picked them up I shuddered inside. I tried and tried but could not do it. I remember somewhere deep inside my mind kept saying this is not what I am here for. This is not my calling. So dont know what my calling is but think it is more than just my throwing up a shield. It is partially the problem combined with something else on this one . I empathic wise get a I liek you or a dont liek you instantly on people. I have to spend time with them talking to get info . Like I just somehow know info.when face to face. Have never got those thoughts when meet soemone and just spend a ltitle time with them other than I dont like your energy or I like your energy feelings. Zinthar I didnt get any feelings on you till about your third post. Then I kept feeling chaos so I read your words more carefully and I just knew what the problem was but didnt say anything till I felt you were In TROUBLE. I truly feel we have a past life connection . Nothing like purging ones soul on the net lmao......I have had a wild ride the last series of years. I have expereinced almsos every metaphysical thing you can experience at least once or twice. Some continue some dont. I have experienced almost all the kiesis things from moving objects to freezing water at least once. I have had step ins...possessions...attacks....things comin out of mirrors...seen and talked to God and Jesus....Have had my steps frozen solid so I coudl nto move fromt he lower half of my body wehn I came face to face with high level dark entity.with a male voice in my ear sayign over and over "Show no fear".....Have seen all the masters and had beings from other realms appear on my bed...have seen orb shuttles and been allowed to see myself riding in them. Have been to many many past lives and future lives...have been on board the space ships seen the terrestials and ultra terrestials. There is very little I have not been allowed to see , feel, hear, or taste. I had a kundalaini that lasted 40 days...where i watched the entire crucifiction out of Jesuses eyes...felt his pain, watched the nails being driven through my wrists , was drug up my bed onto my headboard and outstreched. Was slammed against the headboard over and over. I ended up with scars .not gapeing bleeeding stigmata scars but scars like old wound all over my body that were not there before. Did I have a breakdown or did I have a step in or did I access my CHRIST energy. ...I am not sure...what I do know within my soul is that I have been shown and allowed all this at least once for a reason......I was told that I was chosen because I was the only one strong enough to withstand it . Try that for a humble message.........I lost my job and almost lost my home and everything else over it but after selling a lot of my stuff to get on solid ground with lots of cracks in it i was led to a job that I still have. What the reason is I am not sure yet. I beleive it is so that I can understand peoples posts. Because I have been there done that.... Believe me I have researched my brain into oblivion on much of this trying to understand what happened and why. I ahve lots of autowrites that explain ti all to em but I also am smart enough to knwo a lto of autowrites are actually influenced by our monkey minds and the lower entities so I dont take a 100% stock in what they say. ai ebleive in tiem it will all make sense. So if I cant read people without throwing a shield than I can live with it . As I feel blessed that i have seen so mcuh, felt so much and met some of the most powerful beings in the universe. The why must not be that important. I am sorry for all this ...I must have needed to purge.......................