[ggandibazz]

I'm going to try to describe a couple different things that have been happening to me, and I'm wondering if anyone else has had similar experiences, or if someone can give me some insight as to what this is...

First there's a conscious focusing of energy I can do. As I sit there, if I focus through my torso area, I can feel this energy coursing up through my body. It feels a bit like fire, or an adrenaline rush. I think it might be chi, or prana, but I'm not sure. It's a very physical sensation. It's almost like fire, or a rush of wind.

I can only sustain it for about 2 seconds and then I have to rest for a few seconds. It's almost like tensing muscles, but it's accompanied by a rush that goes all the way from my pelvic region to the top of my head. I imagine someone who's very sensitive at detecting energy would probably have to be near me to get a good idea of what this energy is. I'm wondering if it's useful - what can I do with it? Should I try to summon it in a more focused and sustained manner? I just learned I could do this sometime within the past year, but I do remember as a very small child I could make myself so heavy that big kids couldn't pick me up. It seems like it might be related, but I'm not sure.

Another type of energy that I've been experiencing is spontaneous. It happens when I'm half awake and half asleep. If I wake up in the night I can feel it coursing through me, and usually what follows will be an extremely vivid, often lucid dream, or what feels like astral projection or even time travel. I've had some extremely powerful experiences following this energy release.

It feels much more powerful than what I was talking about earlier when I consciously summon energy, but it's similar. One difference is that this comes in waves, or a vibration, almost like someone is blasting a subwoofer through me. Sometimes I can hear it in my ears like wind. Sometimes it's smooth, and sometimes it's rough. I can consciously direct the flow somewhat, and if I wake up to full consciousness, it goes away. It's definitely connected to being half awake/half asleep. It feels tingly and in some ways, it almost feels like some type of drug. The sensation covers my whole body, but it's especially strong from the waist up.

It doesn't feel negative at all - it's actually rather pleasant, but in some ways it almost feels scary... like I've awoken some kind of dragon inside me... like there's a side of me that's extremely ancient and powerful.

What is this? Are they both the same energy? Is this Kundalini? I don't practice Kundalini Yoga, but I do a lot of chakra meditations and breathwork. When this energy happens though, it's never part of meditation. The first type of energy is like flexing muscles somewhere, and the second just happens spontaneously in the wee hours of the night, about 3-4 times a week. Actually I should start logging how often it happens in my journal.

I feel that you are experiencing a Kundalini awakening, I could be wrong though.. Your symptoms are similar to it.. Some of the symptoms of it are as below-

Common Kundalini Awakening Symptoms:
•Tingling in the body and brain region. Also sometimes described as ants walking, tickling energy or flushes of energy. The brain being flushed with energy is quite pleasant :-).
•Heat or cold in the system, or running along various channels and chakra centers.
•Fluttering or twitching of muscles.
•Pinching or burning in various regions of the body or brain.

Uncommon Kundalini Awakening Symptoms:
•Pressure in the Third Eye Region (Ajna Chakra). This is pressure, tingling or other sensation in the center of the forehead. Can go on for years (14 years and counting so far for me). Caution: If the pressure, due to certain practices, intensifies to uncomfortable levels you feel are "immense", you should cease that practice and consult a competent kundalini yoga teacher.
•Sudden bursts of energy anywhere in the body. These are almost always short lived, from a few seconds to a few minutes.
•Spontaneous yoga asans or kundalini yoga movements. They may come on spontaneously, or they may take over, as if on auto-pilot when one is practicing Kundalini Yoga Kriyas or Exercises (For an example see article: Explosive Kundalini Rising in Class Today).
•Kundalini Shakti rising up and elongating the spine.
•Incredible feeling of love and desire for your partner (not ordinary lust, alcohol induced or otherwise :-). Usually comes upon you spontaneously, deep in the night. Sex feels like it’s the first such experience and the intense feelings of attraction emanate from somewhere beyond yourself.
•Unfortunately, pain in the lower back, back of the neck and headaches.

Rare Kundalini Awakening Symptoms:
•Experience of divine light within. Very intense light, usually pure white and incredibly beautiful. I call it the Radiation of the Lord.
•Tremendous vibratory energy (sometimes feels like it’s coming from the inner ears). Very blissful, but can intensify to the point where it would completely overwhelm your consciousness if you let it.
•Spontaneous bliss, intensely pleasurable.
•This one is a bit scary. Complete paralysis of the body. Complete immobility and rigidity takes place. As with the all consuming vibratory energy, it requires some courage to allow.
•This one is exceedingly rare. I have experienced it only once in my life, and have only ever read about it being experienced by one other - the master of awareness, G. I. Gurdjieff. The arms and legs churn like that of a baby. It happens naturally and cannot be simulated. It is also intensely pleasurable and quite a remarkable experience.

Hope this was helful!

Love & light

g