[intisgunkas]

I have started doing long-distance healing type things, and I don't even know how it happened to me! I was sitting there talking to a friend one time online, and suddenly got the urge to try healing him - and I tried, and it came (amazingly!) naturally to me, and I just...did it! I have sent energy and healing to people a few times since, and it feels so natural to me, but I can't help but wonder - how did THAT happen? No one attuned me that I know of, there were no special messages, really...it just happened! I don't even know a thing about Reiki, or if that's what I'm using, or anything - but here's what I know/do.

What I do takes hand motions, almost always, but can sometimes, with a lot of effort, be done mentally (I don't have enough control to do that well, yet). So, usually hand motions. I first take a deep, cleansing breath, moving my hands up and down slowly, rising, then falling, and it seems to align something inside me, seems to open me up and get me ready for the healing. Then, I usually take a moment to cleanse the person in a special way - sometimes myself first, because I feel I need to be pure before I heal someone else - of these strange impurities, negative energies, that I see in people sometimes. Then comes the healing, with varying steps for each person.

I see different visuals every time, but they seem to have themes, usually very natural, earthy themes like electricity, water, wind, fire, pure soil, etc. I sometimes see colors, sometimes see symbols and even objects while I'm doing this. I usually ask my guides what is going on, and they will explain the meanings of some objects that I fail to understand, and tell me what to do with them...

So what has happened to me? I feel like something has "opened up" in me that has been there all my life, but I don't know what opened me up or how I know to do all of this! I hold a fear in me and a doubt that I can do this right, feeling that I'm going to mess it up...but I think deep down that's just my ego or something, because what I'm doing feels like it comes from the Light.

Sorry for the long post...