[HotDolly]

So I read the two responses and am thankful for them.

Still, I was saying... but I'm more peaceful and calm than ever- instead of working 18 hours a day every day, i'm at home, not working and alone with my 4 month old.
I meditate and chill...

Then I thought... well I'm so not afraid, that has nothing to do with it...I've lived with bad energies before, been scared out of my mind, but I'm not scared now...just alone...but not scared now...

And then it hit me! Maybe I'm just so used to the bad bad vibes around me, or the entities that just want to mess around and scare me.
Maybe I haven't been "feeling" because I wasn't open to the truth that there could be good vibes or loving energies around me.
Anyways, I feel like i just figured out the answer to a tough math problem, like a cloud has been lifted.
So thanks Hermit and OomaboO That's exactly what i needed to hear...

I'm still curious about what anybody else wants to say (I'm always in need of education)