[StivRichardOff]

Thanks for your responses. I think what I am worried about is that, I don't know, that I am not wise enough to really be receiving some of my information. I kinda feel like, "who am I?" I was just an engineer trying to make it in the world, and now I am someone who is gone the complete opposite direction. I feel like I have no frame of reference to evaluate what is happening to me. Yet at the same time, I can look back into childhood and see that the seeds have always been there.

I suppose I worry that my ego misinterprets, so I try to stay humble. I come up with ideas, but I usually say to myself that I could be wrong. Thing is, my efforts to stay humble have crossed over to self-doubt. I suppose I am looking for some validation so it will be easier to trust myself. How can I be a benefit to others if I don't even have confidence in myself?

Thanks for letting me air my thoughts.
Jeanette