[Toivaluadiora]

The only memory I have is in uttero..the moment I believe I became "aware" in this life. I remember kinda waking up and feeling so warm and safe. I remember it was dark but it didn't matter I was safe and warm and loved. I didn't want to leave but I knew I was going to have to and soon. I was saddened but not frightened...I knew it had to happen. My next memory is when I was about 4 weeks old (I was told later by my aunt). I remember waking up and looking around and seeing brown wooden walls and a blue ceiling. I remember being in bed between 2 people. On the right side of me was a man..I remember he seemed quite large to me and I was afraid he would roll over on me. On my left was love. I looked at her face and felt safe and happy. I can remember what her hair and face looked like. I went back to sleep. It was my aunt and uncle. She told me that was a motel room and that It was in a different town. She said I described it exactly..even the blue ceiling lol. I even told her where the bed was in relationship to the room and where the bathroom was because the light was on. She told me that I was a good baby...I would never wake up in the middle of the night and cry. I told her I woke up but I would look around and then go back to sleep. Before I told her of this memory I didn't know that she had taken care of me for a while because my mother was having problems. Anyways the point I want to make trying not to get off topic here...I felt like an adult (sort of) I didn't feel like a baby at all. I felt like I could have thoughts just as I do today. I didn't feel like I didn't know anything because I was a baby. I felt like if I had the capability I could actually talk and have adult conversations. So I have always known that there had to be something before I was born. I couldn't have thought that way if I was brand new and had never existed before.