[Viafdrear]

Thank you frankie x x x

Yes, i get this feeling kinda often exactly when im too excited about stuff...but also when i am not sure....like...it was a risk! I meanmoving the grup from MSN was a very tough decision for me.. I knew it meant a lot of work and it meant a lot of challenges to come. Like, I have worked around htmls and so on but...the php and other programming was something i didnt have a clue about. I didnt know the difference between buying a domain and buying a hosting...it was only 2 months ago...And I did not know what was to come for the group either. I mean I loved the group in MSN...but...I must admit it sometimes did get frustrating because of a number of reasons.

I did want to reach out and help all that needed help but i also wanted privacy for us..the forum and all...but wasnt possible with MSN! And, there were other million things that wasn't possible with MSN....but....i doubted my commitment...( I know I am really dedicated to this site...its a journey of my life and it shall go on till my life does...if i were to go back and look at the MSN group..its more like the story of my life...the happiness...the tears...and the wondeful people..the pain and the joy..its hard to explain really...i dont know when i go back read the posts it ings back each day and each part...)

And then the problem was i identified spirtiualblessing as my life but to me it was spiritualblessing, an MSN group...and i couldnt think of changing it it was all weird and far off distant if you know what you mean...like...it didnt feel like it was spiritualblessing when we moved here...it was a differnt feeling and we have all had a tough time...the change was difficult to a lot of us...starting from scratch and all that was soo scary...half of the members had no clue what was going on...my bad....i had this one morning..within hours...i bought the site..and i did ask for feedback but im sure it'd come as a shocker!

I dont know if anyone thought i was serious...(i didnt either) lol...so i was continually battling this "Yay this is exciting" and "omg am I on crack!". It was funny i felt like a total idiot...and we still moved cuz i wanted to..I really wanted and still want to make a difference! I have always had big ideas for us...and hopefully we will be able to do that...i really hope so...That night i went to bed thinking i was a moron and i had totally decided to NOT move here....then it was my wolf guide who stepped in...the next morning...i was totally ready telling everyone...well sorry we are gonna move. The best part of it all...i had the support from everyone...i dont know if it made any sense to them but Chris, Karen, Harry, Badger, Lightbound, Stormy everyone was there to tell me its gonna be great and its gonna be ok..

After that, i was worried about how everyone will adapt to the new site. I was worried about losing my best friends...but i was totaly wrong! I know the change has been hard on everyone but...see, i have the world's best people around....they are always there for me!!! But, I still wanted to make sure all my members get everything...that they wouldnt have to suffer for my decision...i wanted to make sure i had everything ready for them so the transfer would be real easy....but...i wasn't thinking...if i was to go on my own with the site..id have given up long ago!!!

its everyone all the old memes and the new members that make it worth it and make it fun! I mean all the new members had had to face difficulties cuz of the move and there is no doubt of that....everyone has sacrificed and helped!

Gee, I ramble on forever....where was I...so yes, hmm you're right everyone..it was just an excitement and a disbelief in myself...(i am too random for my own sake sometimes...but i always need to remember i made the right decison that i am very proud of...i made the right decision when we moved here and also when i randonly opened the MSN group...my guides will never let me down...and i need to remember that...i have wonderful friends whoa re there for me even when i walk out myself)
x x x

Love youuuuuuuuuuuu
Mystic

P.S. I have no clue why i wrote so much..and no clue what i was going about lol