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Very sensitive amongst we Antiochians right now, way beyond sensitive in fact: anger, rage, confusion, a feeling of betrayal whichever 'side' one finds oneself. The fact that there are 'sides' at all speaks to the horrible dysfunction we labor under. The overall issue that goes beyond the bounds of our archdiocease or whatever it really is extends to the proper use of episcopal authority and to whom bishops are accountble. If any thinks for an instant that your jurisdiction is safe and secure and such troubles cannot and will not come to you, you are mistaken.

I struggle to obey my own bishop's instruction to 'not loose my peace'.

Whatever the proper order is, it will take more than just us poor Antiochians to find and implement.

What is obedience for a lay person? When conflict arises, to whom do we owe our obedience? I came here tonight hoping for an insiteful word from my brothers and sisters and am greated with the statement that such questions apparently have no place here because they are too sensitive. Certainly we must refrain from personal accusations and denunciations, but if we cannot explore 'sensitive' questions in good faith with our brothers, how can we come to the truth?

Many are hurting and in great pain, some thinking of leaving the faith altogether. Can we not do more than pray and be silent? From the Antiochian priests who fear for their families, their livlihoods and their vocations I understand the silence, but others? Is it really our Cross to bear alone--are there no Cyrenians here at least?