[limpoporanique]

Although these are valid as issues in their own light, this Forum is specifically to discuss the Patristic and ascetic basis of Church life, at most what in general lies behind such issues. So you may get some good insights here as to the specific issues involved. But since this is not a place for debate then you can also end up just as easily confused by what you read here. In other words we're not here to make up your mind for you. That can only occur with your priest/spiritual father, and in the environment of your parish, or jurisdiction, where your struggle actually occurs as a place of commitment.

In Christ- Fr Raphael