[NiliSpuppypax]

Hi all, i really need some good and honest advice. I am friends with a thai girl where i live, i have known her nearly two years but friends is all we are, and if i am being honest the friendship, in the main, is only on my side.She knows how i feel about her, i tell her often enough but she says she is not ready for anything else. I have met other thai people through her and they are nice kind people and have asked for their help in trying to understand her. She has been in abusive relationships in the past and im not sure if this is a reason or not that she is reluctant to commit. I was told that it takes a long time for a Thai girl to fall in love and im sure she doesn't want to make the same mistake again.I would wait for as long as i takes but things begin to creep in my mind and doubts are eating away at me. Unfortunatly there are other factors with my doubts. I am just an ordinary guy with an ordinary job and have got myself into a mess because i have given money to her for all sorts of things and she is constantly asking for more and its not just £10 or £20. I have read stickman and am aware of the horror stories but i try to block them out, her friends have been of help but i am always aware of where their loyalties lay.when i talk to these friends is with a genuine need to know and not just idle curiosity for her reasons. there is another thing that is playing on my mind my friend was married once to a man 20 years her senior whereas i am only 6 years older than her ( 39/45 ) and all her friends are married to much older men and they all lead seperate and i mean seperate lives to their husbands and that is not what i want, i want a relationship that is both psyical and spiritual, the truth is that i am totally and utterly crazy about her and am at my wits end she wont talk to me about my fears just saying that i am acting like a child. Sorry to have gone on so long but i need somebody elses perspective on this,thanks in advance C