There is a lot of fear attached to your manifesting. the energy come from you in waves. Though you may not know that some of what you "ask" for has ego attachments, it does. Eckhart Tolle and Deepak Chopra are two very deep and interesting people when it comes to learning about ego and manifesting. You may want to try to understand what ego means. It goes deeper than just being "selfish" or wanting just to want. When you can remove the "I" from your manifesting...then you will truly receive abundance. Count the "I"'s in your post. Very few "we" or "us". Do you see it?