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**TOPERink** · 06-03-2008, 07:50 AM

One more, and I'm done.

I hate who I am. I hate who I used to be, and everything I've ever done or said.
I hate that there has to be conflict. I hate that I have to notice all the conflict, and yet not know enough about it to try and come up with solutions or at least be productive.
I hate that I'm becoming so aggressive. I hate that my "family" household has truly detached from me no matter what anyone says. They want me to move out, clearly saying it, talking about me as if I'm not there with them.
I hate that I'm 16 and thinking about all this negative stuff when I should be focusing on a positive future for myself. I can't think about school, I have to think about another place to live. Those people won't kick me out or anything, but they will do everything they can to make me miserable and throw things in my face.. as long as they don't get caught. They do me favors, and only because they have to. I can't keep living this way right now, I need to get things done for me, and myself alone.
I hate that I have to feel alone, even if I know otherwise. Or maybe I don't know otherwise.
I hate that I have to be so unsure, even when I seem to be so set in my thoughts and opinions.
I wish I could just stop talking.

06-03-2008, 07:50 AM	#35
TOPERink Join Date Nov 2005 Posts 420 Senior Member	One more, and I'm done. I hate who I am. I hate who I used to be, and everything I've ever done or said. I hate that there has to be conflict. I hate that I have to notice all the conflict, and yet not know enough about it to try and come up with solutions or at least be productive. I hate that I'm becoming so aggressive. I hate that my "family" household has truly detached from me no matter what anyone says. They want me to move out, clearly saying it, talking about me as if I'm not there with them. I hate that I'm 16 and thinking about all this negative stuff when I should be focusing on a positive future for myself. I can't think about school, I have to think about another place to live. Those people won't kick me out or anything, but they will do everything they can to make me miserable and throw things in my face.. as long as they don't get caught. They do me favors, and only because they have to. I can't keep living this way right now, I need to get things done for me, and myself alone. I hate that I have to feel alone, even if I know otherwise. Or maybe I don't know otherwise. I hate that I have to be so unsure, even when I seem to be so set in my thoughts and opinions. I wish I could just stop talking.
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