Silent Wonders I'm sorry you are feeling this way. I personally didn't find the question what is normal to be offensive. In all aspects of the question it was in my opinion asking what others see as normal. No two people have the same outlook on something or share the same exact meaning of something. Personally I wouldn't have called anyone a smartbutt because I would have simply asked them to clarify what they meant....if they were really wondering what it means to be normal or if they were being sarcastic. I really feel, that psychologically, or somewhere deep in my subconscious, I have programmed myself to perceive things in ways that most other people would not, but I'm not sure why or how to clearly explain this.. There are times I can understand what people mean by certain phrases or questions- and I accept that for the majority of it all. There are also times, when I guess I want to be a smart-aleck, and I come up with wacky, and sometimes overly-complicated(possibly pointless as well lol) concepts that I know people will have a hard time relating with, even if it makes sense on some level, whether by a lot or hardly. It's not something I can always control about my thought process, but I am aware of when people might have a hard time getting my ideas, but I do mean well. I have dealt with pretty crazy people, and I used to call them friends.. best ones. They abused me and took advantage of all the love and gifts I wanted to and tried to offer them. Maybe in some way, I'm just trying to put myself in their shoes so I can further understand why they behave the ways they do- instead of just saying that they are sick in the mind, or have problems. I make myself think in what I consider ridiculous ways, if it can be helped or not helped. I never mean to seem aggressive and offend anyone- ever. It's an accident. I'm just trying to challenge myself, and other people's minds as well if I can.. to test people on their security on what they say. Not to mock them, or degrade their thoughts. Maybe it doesn't work, maybe I need to learn and program a different type of approach with this. And maybe I don't deserve or I'm too inexperienced to try that kind of role. I'm just weird this way. And I'm sincerely sorry if anyone who read this was offended. In truth, I was angry and hurt at the time of posting my rants. But I couldn't exactly write about the real reason why at first. Again, I'm sorry. And please, anyone, say what you feel about my post if you want to get something out, maybe I need to hear it. I know I'm wacky. I understand my behavior may not always be acceptable, and I'm sorry. I will accept what is said, if anything. Reading people's words is alot different then hearing them and watching them. We can intrepret something totally wrong because they may have worded it strangely. You're right. Also, to add a few more cents of my own if I had a handicap no matter what it was I would like others to treat me just like they would treat someone else. If you'd like to call that normal then so be it, but there isn't any reason why handicapped people should be treated any differently because of that. I mainly meant physically and mentally impaired people who have handicaps on really extreme levels. I think I know what I was trying to get at now with what I was saying. There will be times when these people notice their limitations. Like if they can't play a sport or something because they're in a wheelchair, paralyzed or maybe they were just born that way. Maybe they love music and want to be trained in it and be involved, or sing.. but they can't talk in language, and their hands didn't develop so they would even be able to write music. Like without fingers. And they really wanted to have it in their life. I guess I meant they should be supported in that so that they can feel better, but at the same time not be expected to go above and beyond in what they can't do. Yes, it's wrong to yell at anyone or mistreat them handicapped or not. That's always been true.. but there's conflict with that anyway all over the place. I guess that's part of my frustration. My prayers and thoughts are with you during these hard times you are facing hun. I pray you will begin to have some peace and clarity in your life. Thank you for all your support. Really. Love and blessings You too