Hi Many thanks guys for taking the time to read my msg and come back to me. You have all come up with exactly the same reasons I have! Mystical: "Lose your 'expectations' of yourself and your abilities, and just have faith and KNOW that you are a loved and gifted medium and divine channel. Keep practicing, stay open, and have faith that they are there communicating". I had so much faith that spirit were communicating... I did believe them 100%Faith was not the problem.. but you are SO right, expectations were the problem ........ ;O) I have also got a message from your answer... a medium (from a different country) called me aside (i was sitting in audience and he didnt know I was a medium) when doing a demo & told me that spirit had a message for me.. to keep practising mediumship.. and when I read your answer... it kept flashing in my head! Mediumship is SOO hard in Ireland as there are not many great teachers or circles (unlike UK) but that is another story!! Zenchi.. You are correct - Timing was not right, I now understand this.. but stupidly I had arranged things around the timeframe the medium gave me.. instead of waiting and doing it when It felt right for me...... so another lesson there! For me and for those who I shall read in future.. Skye... Ans to your question... I dont think it came from the aura, as she got everything else spot on.. from spirit.. from my mum... and as she was reading, I tuned it and could sense, feel and see some of the stuff she was getting.' I still feel the info given was correct except for 1 thing. timing ... Im picking up 2 words here, timing and higher good (as the others have also said).. wasnt meant to be Just YET! but will happen... You are right spirit world are not responsible... me and my ego are! It is also very comforting to know that others like yourself, have gotten things wrong also.. Its not a perfect world afterall.. ha ha! Another message I am picking up .. is we will never learn unless we make mistakes!!! Mecca.. ur message was spot on.. I have had different angles in which I have found myself (i have dissected the probable causes in my head a few times!) as well as major confirmation from you all........ there was not 1 lesson but many... !!! I am also picking up free will......... time can change according to free will! My higher will would have wanted to wait... but my will.. with my impatience and ego wanted for me to happen quicker... I have gotten so much from your responses .. many thanks!