[largonioulurI]

I feel kind of the same way. I often want to be great and be in the spotlight. I think the reason is because I want to speak to large groups of people and inspire them and move the crowd. The first step is to find out exactly what you're going to say and how you're going to say it. Try to pay attention to how you react to certain things and how people react to you. Gauge your ability to communicate and try to improve it if you need to. You can do whatever you want to do and do it honestly. There are certain lessons you can learn that will help you through this. Just make sure to pay attention to the patterns in life. The patterns will teach you a lot.

One more thing. I also went through something where I struggled with thinking I was better than people because I did more. It just means that your perspective on the world is still growing and you haven't reached that random moment of clarity. This is what I've learned from my own sudden moments of clarity. lol. I could be totally wrong and if I am, I'm sure someone will come behind me and sweep up the mess. *hint-sweep up the mess* but yeah. Your consciousness will continue expanding until you can see all the paths that work themselves around the obstacles. Don't fret, just think. It will come.