[Adwetyren]

I feel like maybe I'm crazy or something!! I guess I'm just checking here to make sure. X_x

Either I'm crazy, or I've just had some kind of message from an angel. He went by the name Gabriel - but maybe it wasn't THE Gabriel, I don't know. Maybe he was just another Gabriel. He was pretty big, though - like a giant human with a pair of wings, a wingspan like that of a small jet. His presence made me kind of cower because I just could feel the vastness of his energy, but he was just sitting there smiling and said not to be like that. He reached out his hand and gave me something, and then told me to put that thing in my heart...literally, physically to take my hands and press them against my heart. I felt pressure on my chest as I brought the object up 'against' my chest where my heart is, but with his direction I -forced- the object in, and it seemed to reform around my heart. It literally kind of hurt in a strange sense, I could feel a dull ache on my heart, like it was straining, like I had actually put the object there... He then told me, "Now you have the world on your heart" and then again, "Now you have the world on your heavy heart."

Since that time, there have been times when I could feel my heart grow warm or cold or otherwise affected seemingly by this strange object. I once felt an immense, overwhelming amount of pain, like I was feeling the pain of a LOT of people, if toned down...and I started to sob, and it felt almost to the point where I couldn't breathe for the emotional pain, and I prayed for God to help me and all the people I was feeling. I then suddenly felt as if something had dawned on me; that there was healing for the world. There was hope. And through my tears I laughed and said "There is healing...there is healing.". It was so strange...

I'm just so confused. Am I crazy? Have I lost my freaking mind?! I keep having these times, since that event, where I feel as if I can feel a big huge chunk of emotions that are not my own, as if they're coming off of not just one person but a LOT of people...and I just pray, every time, but man...have I lost it?! It feels so real, but I just am so afraid!