I don't remember my childhood very well, but I was withdrawn and unhappy - not understanding the world I was in. It wasn't until I was 21, 15 years ago, that I had to admit what was 'wrong' (or right) with me. I trained for 4 years and after being 'afraid' of what was going on, I left everything to develop strength in my body and to ground myself. I've just realised I'm ready to begin the next stage. Great to see so many of you (us) out there. Thank you for sharing. Part of the reason for returning to this path is my son. He's started seeing people, hearing noises - and I just can't bare for him to grow up like me. So - learn I will, and guide I shall.