[Dumpishchaism]

I didn't realise until I saw my dad's death (6 yrs ago, I'm 37 now).... I remember I was always picked on my a certain family member saying I was weird/bad omen growing up...

Anyways, there was an incident ...I would dream about my older sister calling out for help for almost a week until I called up my parents to check on her... she was being abused by her husband and she was too ashamed/stubborn (she married him inspite of the family telling her not too)... when my parents went to see her she was on the verge of a breakdown!!

Now that I've accepted my gift I remember a lot of incidents/feeling/dreams ..
I'm still trying/working on healing my childhood/past. Growing up I used to always feel lonely... I would keep away from others or give excuses not to attend a party... I was kinda depressed most of the time ... hmmmm.... now it all makes sense!!