[atmowasia]

I admittedly do not know a lot about spirits, especially the more complex spirits that are not simply ghosts. In all my experiences, I have learned that there's a lot out there I do not understand and perhaps could not understand even if someone told me outright.

With that said...I really cannot understand the things my guide tells me!! He has become very honest about himself and all the interesting details about him, perhaps so I can learn about spirits in general, perhaps because for years I hounded him to know who and what he was.

He's told me that he has lived many lives, and apparently he can change form at will if needed to teach me something (a wolf, for instance), but his usual form is that of his last life, when he lived in England (basically in the UK and France, throughout his life) in the 1800's. He has told me a bit about this life, but...according to him, it is not at all his only life.

He claims he is a very, very, very old spirit. He claims that he went from "Darkness" (chaos, almost) into "Light" throughout the millenia, evolved from a very dark (not necessarily evil) creature to a creature of Light. He claims all kinds of things. He said he doesn't like the word angel when referring to guides like himself, because he is not at all an angel, but "like one in some sense". (It's kind of funny to watch him scoff and pout when I ever think about him being an angel.) He said he is part of a "higher order" of spirits, that he was "sent" to me at some point - sort of a Fate kind of thing, almost, in the way it works. I mean, I could go on forever about this!

Now, I have learned not to doubt my guide. But my goodness, is there really stuff out there like this?!! I have SO many questions based on the answers he has given me about himself!! How in the world do I learn more about all this?? Who in the world would know??