[Dumpishchaism]

i have been having the feeling of just getting up and leave this town. after being more aware there is times i wish i wasn't. i keep questioning myself of what am i doing here i need to move to a more enlighten area. its seems so dark here, but on the other hand i realize that there is a reason i am here in this depressing town. if you look there is few enlighten people that i have ran into and its almost an instant that you recognize them. what a relief that is to see someone in person who does still have concern of our world and cares. this is what makes me stay. i always thought about preparing and wondering it its really worth it, but the problem is i can't leave to save just myself or my kids. i am sure this has crossed many times before with others and even though this is a rough world we chose to be here to help those who want it.

keeping a smile on our face helps alot i think even those who look away thats ok.