[Thifiadardivy]

[quote=. i think you may be being a bit cynical about david's conference- there are many spiritually aware people in this country (finding them isn't easy though!) and i'm sure there will be plenty at the london conference. /quote]

liam, thank you for pointing it out, yes, i might be getting little cynical about meeting "spiritual people", as most people (usually women) ask most irritating questions like "are you in it ?" in what ? they mean spiritual stuff, ufos and so, like some kind of "hobby". or they give me two hour lectures of their own "mystical" experiences and being a kind person i just cannot run away.

what is it then that i am looking for ? to meet someone who is not looking for ufos to land, or dwell deep in goverment conpiracy theories or so, or wait alien to save or kill us. but wants honestly answers to same kind of question that i cannot really but on words ?

i tell some background.
i have thirty years read, studied parapsychological and psychological books,
metaphysics, read hundred of webpages etc ...worked even few months as a young adult in terminal department in hospital to see "how we die" and in mental hospital as a cleaner to see "how the mind works" or what is the real difference between "the real crazy ones " and "normal ones". and i have had quite a life.

i have always known that i am not "from here". even my ex husband (divorced nine years ago) gave up forcing me to be "normal" (harness my talents and mental skills for money making! ) althought he kind of made me promise that i put my "ufostuff " to rest until my children are older, and now they are. (this may sound very funny but my ex- husband was really scared that my second child would be and look like " an alien". he was so happy when he saw the new born had normal human body. although he had heartfailure and umbilical cord twice around his neck.)

around seven six years ago i started to see that dream of meeting with "aliens" , flying to the spacecraft etc. when being little girl.
and when i happened to call my biological mother and told about the dream, she was most surpirised that i did not remember that we had "ufo incident " on our summercottage. it was reported on newspapers and even on "ufo" programms back in early 1970's. local police was investigating etc .and i met my first american who came to interview my mother with an interpreter.
and most surprisingly i have started to remember more,

but mind can play tricks with us. and there is forces (like in the game movie) that may not like us to find the truth too easily, see through the illusions.

so, it might be that after all " not wanting to meet anyone ", i am kind of ready to see " if there is anyone else playing the same game" .

~anne