so they still haven't met and i don't think i'm ready. here's why. [snip] my fear at the present time (and i know i should not fear anything) is that if my dad questions mark and mark answers honestly (like i know he will) my dad will have his entire congregation praying for my salvation (if he doesn't already). i believe in the power of prayer and meditation, especially when done in a group. david told of a group of 7000 people who meditated in israel for world peace, and terrorism etc. was reduced at that time by something like 73%. that's mind boggling. so, i'm afraid of what my dad can do to me through group prayer. i know that i have awakened. i truly believe in the law of one - that all is one. i am on my second read of the loo study guide. i love reading q'uo. i love this forum. it has been very helpful to me. i know mark and many of you say to ask your higher self for guidance and to look within yourself for the answers - and i do. i just feel that at the present moment i am blocked from being able to progress and grow. i have made some progress in trying to meditate but then negative thoughts creep in and i can't focus. it bothers me immensely that i feel blocked. i don't understand why. it's very frustrating. i have read all kinds of stuff on how to meditate and how to unblock your chakra's etc., but i guess i just need to keep trying and perhaps lose the fear that my father is capable of impeding my progress. i guess my point is that i don't need anything working against me - like my father. maybe if i knew that there were some positive thoughts and energy coming my way from the forum members it would help. just writing all this has helped. so be sure inquiring minds that when i am ready for my father and mark to meet, i will let him tell the tale and i'm sure it will be a good one. he really has no idea what he is in for! kris