[stuck_in_WA]

thanks for all the sharing everyone, i love reading about your thoughts and memories. i feel compelled to share some more with you all, so here goes
i live in france now, but was born in the us, but since i was young, i have always been crazy about the country, mainly the middle ages. i learned the language begining at 12 and now speak fairly fluently, but i always felt frustrated that i don't speak like a native (meaning i have a strong american accent) the first time i visited the country, i had an intense emotional reaction, of coming home, of familiarity, that i felt inspired to write constantly, (i have a very long travel journal of my experiences that i would be willing to email to you if any one is interested). one of the strongest reactions happened while visiting the medieval louvre, there was a dungeon gloomily lit in the dark, and i had a flashback of some sort where i began to tremble and feel very sad. i knew in some part of me that i had spent my final days in a place like that and it upset me terribly. (in fact, i'm ice cold and trembling right now) since then, i feel like i needed to come back and make peace with that particular existance, but i have not really been able to learn anymore about that life, and each time i try, i hear, you are not ready in my ears and i am jerked awake or aware. so, i move on about it, but i still feel like it is important, enough that i live now in france too, part of my mission is involved with this country i think. so, thats me sharing some more, keep the memories and thoughts coming!

on another note, i connected to many of your comments here, pretty much everyone who has written and i am happy to meet you all!
blessings to you all.