i liked your replies, detlef and metamike. it is so refreshing not to have to adhere to any set of strictures or rules. how i hate rules and restrictions and dogmas etc..... the knowledge is all inside, and it is fluid and ever changing. i love the term wanderer and identified with it as soon as i heard it on this forum. it hasn't been easy going against the tide, and being laughed at and disapproved of. so it's nice to find a group of people who understand. thanks for this forum. and thanks to david who has so many people thinking they have a special connection with him, me included. every time he opens his mouth it's like me talking, and apparently a lot of people here feel the same. amazing. we're taught to have heroes, but the real heroes are those who point at everybody and say we're all the heroes. it's all there inside, learn to listen and listen to learn. books are nice to pass the time, but books don't contain the real knowledge. that lies in each heart that beats, and it's only there the true knowledge resides.