[patrycjakolekk]

hi amelie, i read your post and when you described how you had been feeling, i thought that i could really relate, so.

i know that feeling.. such as when as you're going about the day, you witness conflicts, dramas, or ignorance in other people (those people being the ones that "don't understand"). and it's not just that you feel like their struggles could easily be doused with a clearer head and awareness, but if only you could instantly transmute that 'cosmic awareness' of yours to them, so they could then see how simple it is to be happy.

people must go through their own processes, or transitions to awakening their senses and realizing what it is that we are experiencing here. i don't mean that there's nothing you can do - because you can be a spark to their search, or a part of their discovery.
a lot of the time i will get this feeling that i'm alone, since i too really don't have many people who see things the same, in my daily life. it's not that i feel alone in the world, because i know my life will take me to many places eventually, meeting many people, and over time - reaching that point i yearn for already.
i'm always thinking to myself how better it would be if our societies would wake up from their blunders, and dazed confusion. but i think that many of us are still young and possibly unprepared for that - but that's it. we are being prepared, individually and collectively. on top of that, i feel that not only are we as beings being prepared and awakened, but everything around us.. so although it may seem sometimes that things might get worse.. well, out of chaos, rises order. i think that although we're all walking a different path through the same woods, we're about to end up in the same clearing! to me, the only thing to really worry about.. is forgetting about the food on the stove.... which i seemed to have just forgotten about again

you say that you have a lot of energy trapped inside, yearning to be part of the wave, the movement - and you are! whether this is apparent to you in this physical realm, could be a matter of a universal 'test'. don't let it cause you pain or regret, rather smile and embrace the transition you are making. it is, after all, through determination, motivation, devotion, etc. that we finally get to that point along our paths.

continue to follow this path and be grateful you have your eyes wide open, it will only get better, and remember that we are all here to help each other.