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hello apoc,

i dont claim facts from sources or others....only let them influence you and still use discernment for what only resonates for you. if its giving you a feeling of uneasiness (not knowing whether to be happy or sad) then you have actually accomplished something. the times when we aren't sure about something are actually gems awaiting to be polished.

we all are a part of something that is not of material/flesh. all of us. this material is not our original being. actually, ever single thing/existence began as a thought of the infinite creator. the law of one says this as well as many old religious material. we all began as a thought...before the material came to be, everything emanated from the infinite creator, within the infinite creator, one thought flowing to another and so on.

i dont go by the 'questionnaire' to know where i am from (even though it is interesting)....i go by my feeling of when i look at stars....i feel i could fly home. i dont strive to return to my soul group....i strive to return to the creator.

try not worrying about if you have ever been apart of another planet besides earth and try focusing more on that every single soul groups final match, no matter which roads or spheres (if you will) they choose to experience, the final match places everything right back where we all came from, the infinite creator (i like to call thee a manifestor, because thee really doesnt create our of nothing, thee creates out of theeself). we are all a part of that....earth really isnt a true home for anyone. with the experiences of the material things and people around us, of course most are going to feel like their parents here are really their parents, and in every right, they are their earthly parents, forever in your memory complex.

i have experiences some really nasty sides to myself when younger, i could be very selfish and sometimes had a really bad temper. one of the questions on the guide asks if you have always felt the desire to be peaceful (or something like that). that question was another no for me because while young, i was influenced with alot of things and material gifts, the physical world got the better of my ego for a while...but in the back of my mind, i knew this wasn't my nature. its very possible to answer those questions on the guide and not be able to come up with a positive result due to your environments in this life. the physical world is very misleading to the spirit....this density, to me anyways, seems to be the test of endless material pursuits and a spirit can very well get stuck for a long time.

dont loose thought that we all have a higher self. just knowing this, accepting this, and meditating on this will bring peace to you. i think for some, the purpose isnt knowing if you have ascended before, but knowing there is a higher will that began with the original thought, and that is love my friend. be love and you cant get any closer to your original self then that.

i hope this made sense, i done think you need to feel discouraged at all at the answers to the questions on that guide.

love lynette