[Fruriourl]

i was fortunate enough to be on the cruise with david last month. the last seminar dealt with exactly this topic.

david explained that the original wound was a feeling of separation and abandonment by god and that causes fear, imbalances and blockages which can go unresolved throughout our lives.

in order to help us recognize these possiblities, the group of us went into a meditative state and david started having us visualize the colour of each chakra starting at the bottom. first we focused on the colour red and once we visualized the red, david talked about what the root chakra symbolized. he then had us focus on masculine energies and then feminine energies. he did this through all seven chakras (actually 8, we focused on white as well).

david had told us earlier when we were working on dream analysis, that the yellow chakra symbolizes family, work etc.

what amazed me during the meditation was when he got to yellow and we started focusing on the feminine, tears started rolling down my face. it’s like david said in his message to amelie,

as soon as you get the first 'hit,' the person has a great emotional surge of recognition that someone hears them. the clamp they've put around their heart suddenly and spontaneously loosens. at that moment i realized that i’ve had pent up unresolved feelings from the time i was 13 years old due to the fact that my mother abandoned me twice as a child. my mother and i have been close all my adult life and i thought i had forgiven and understood her, at least in the last ten years or so. but, perhaps not.

it was so powerful, this realization about my mother that it did just hit me.

now, the hard part. how do i resolve this in order to balance my solar plexus chakra? i can say i forgive her. i feel as though i have, but then i wouldn’t have had such an obvious and overwhelming reaction if i had. i’m not sure what to do with this new information. i guess i’ll just put it in the hands of my higher self, although any advice would be appreciated.

kris