[XinordiX]

i said i'd come up with a proper response, so here it is:

foosnik: i would say that intuition, depth, emotion and subtlety are all words that have been repeatedly used by others to describe me. i would agree, as far as a self-analysis can be thrown.

its also very cool that you mention the symbolism of the skull - i made no mention of this in my initial post, but i have always worn something with a skull on it. while people have pointed out the morbidity of it, i have always felt very playful/lively when adorned with a skull (bandanas, wristbands, shirts, etc.). i've never seen this as being sick or negative in any way.


astraya: you've made many points that bring a warmth to me. the idea that the shadows of this world are cast by the brightest light in the next makes more sense to me than you may have hoped for :-) this idea resonates very deeply with me. when night falls, and i'm in a place where artificial light is not being produced, i definitely feel as though there is a stronger presence of universal energy... that's the best way i can describe it, at least.

you are not alone when it comes to feeling somewhat uneasy when people only praise "love and light". to me, "love and darkness" means no less than "love and light." i do not believe in any traditional concept of hell, and thus, only believe evil to be in the mind of the beholder. darkness is no less a part of this world as light, and when true balance is found within the self, it is found in all things. for these reasons, the quote from the law of one that you provided means a lot to me. i've not read that one before, so thank you very much.


transiten: the quote and example that you provided illustrated a rather profound point.

what was more profound was the synchronicity that you had mentioned, because before reading it, i felt strengthened somehow by the black clothing that i had put on that morning. for some time, i thought that maybe i would be better off wearing light colors, as i had read many negative things about the color black, even though none of that information resonated with me in any positive way. i've since decided otherwise, and your message comforted me that much more. besides, as astraya said, black suits me much better :-)


ali quadir: your response spoke deeply to me. i've decided, early on, that my "overactive" empathy exists so that i can not only show people that i understand, but that i can let them feel that i understand. if i ever have a bad day, this strong sense of empathy can be nearly crippling, but i never wish it away. nor would i wish it on anyone else, of course. it is a beautiful thing, and something i tend to with love.

i was raised to be a musician and have been one for quite some time. if i can speak with any sort of confidence, i would say that i certainly do have an artistic streak, as my eyes see beauty in abundance.

as far as introversion is concerned - one thing that i do have trouble with is knowing what i should and shouldn't inform somebody of. i have intuitive understandings of things all the time and wonder whether or not it would be against the person in question's free will to inform them of these things. on the other hand, i sometimes think that i would not recieve these intuitive messages if i were not meant to deliver them. but as you said - sometimes these things take time, and sometimes you're wrong. from this, balance can be sought.


spiral of light: thank you very much for bringing this out into the open - everyday, i have visions of gloomy skies looking over beautiful vegitation in a forest that lays just beyond a very aesthetically pleasing house of old. these visuals have a wide variety, but are always the same. i've yet to be able to figure out whether these are memories, or a place created by my subconscience for the conscience to find comfort in. depending on how you look at it, both may be true :-) but i believe it to be one or the other (at least for starters)

as always, your first impression is your best bet when intuition is actively used. for this reason, i will further consider this possibilty. but granted that this idea is correct, the nocturnal characteristics of mine stand just the same.


aside from all of these words, i've developed many helpful concepts after reading all of your responses. thank you to all who replied and sent their love.

in return, i give you love and gratitude.