[irridgita]

hey many people are at the same place. you're not alone.

it might feel frightening or frustrating because maybe your needs for clarity and contribution and understanding aren't being met.

everyday i wonder about this world and my place in it ... how i look at it ... how others see it ... why i feel so different.

maybe you have found peace in your existence here and you don't even know it ... yet.

maybe you are where others are trying to get. don't think you are behind ... maybe you are ahead.

how about focusing on keeping your energy/vibration in the love and light zone as a contribution to humanity?

i can feel by your email that you have wonderful powers and abilities.

many earth angels or light worker or wanderers are here for the sole (soul) purpose of holding a vibration of love and light to keep the energy up.

it's a vitally important job and it comes with what appears to be little earthly reward and certainly many days of shaking one's head at what appears to be the insanity of it all.

i know you have said that you have gone over david's material.

here is what really helps me when i wonder what the heck i'm doing here...

read and re-read david's really good law of one study guide at http://divinecosmos.com/index.php?op...d=23&itemid=36

listen and listen again to every one of david's radio interviews at http://divinecosmos.com/index.php?op...d=29&itemid=70

and try his science of peace over and over.

i pray a lot in a positive affirming way.

i look at my expectations and realize that i feel better when i focus on holding the energy of love and light and gratitude and forgiveness and then simply having preferences of what i'd like to see.

i do this because i don't fully know what i am here for. what if in your life review you find a huge contribution is holding the positive energy for the planet?

david has said this many times.

what if your life is about service to others and your service is holding the positive energy and contributing it to the field of humanity?

it's a noble and brave service.

every person counts. every positive contribution matters ... it really matters ... it matters into matter