[Vodonaeva]

hi tamarie

i can tell you that when coming into this forum i was suspiscious all the time, since i've been brainwashed by a meditationguru that made me meditate for days and days during several years and when i broke out of his spell i've had an enormous resistance towards meditation. i find my peace mostly by going to a solitary spot in nature with my dog, meditating on a tree or the ocean with open eyes like some buddhists do.

sometimes i felt desperate in spite of all synchronicities, premonitions and visons i have and thought "what's the meaning of having all these phenomena when i feel like crap and nothing ever changes anyway.

i can even feel suspiscious about the things other pple experience here just because i have not had first hand experience myself and having let myself been so deluded..

examine your emotions and frustrations and where they are coming from; is it a pattern from earlier experiences in your childhood or later? we all have different paths toward enlightenment and how interesting would it be if everybody was experiencing the same things at the same time?

i was 27 when i took interest in astrology and other synchronicities started at 32 and i'm now 58, what age are you?
you may be here to ask this question to give us all the opportunity to express our own doubts, that's a big contribution to this forum

thankyou for being so brave and honest!

liliane the transit