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i have enjoyed reading the posts on this thread. such wise words and love flow freely among us; its enough to warm any troubled heart. :d

ultimately the only boundaries that exist are those we put on ourselves. there is a huge step between knowing we need a change and actually going through with it. having made some drastic changes in my life (similar to bill leaving the corporate world), i can only say it takes alot of courage and strength to break through. courage in this case is not lack of fear, but triumph over it. on the other hand, there are other changes i wish to make in my own life that i still have not been able to. one day i guess...

during these times of cleansing and transformation i've found it to be very emotional and challenging. whether it be karmic cleansing, or reaction to new energies, there is a sense that things are out of my control, or at the very least, unexpected. and thats ok. i've come to believe that yes, i do have the ability to co-create, but also, i need to surrender my desire to control, and be open. these troubles are blessings in disguise.

that may sound crazy, but growth isn't always going to be easy, or without struggle. and, perhaps the fact that i am experiencing "growing pains", may be a good thing, a sign that i am growing.

keeping an eye on the goal is pretty difficult when going through rough waters. i've been led to "live in the now", etc. i guess the hardest issue i have to deal with is "loosing" my sense of clarity - that i had it all figured out and each day was great. i used to post frequently and felt that i was becoming that beacon of light. then, due to whatever, it was gone. having been without that feeling has been difficult to endure, but it is coming back. maybe that means another layer of the onion is peeling away; each up has its down, etc.

thank you for reading this if you've made it this far. i think this has helped me more than anything; helped me to vent, air out my thoughts, etc.

take care,

art