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"fear is the mind killer." or thereabouts, written by frank herbert in the classic sci-fi "dune."

as for falling asleep while meditating or reading intensive materials i agree that we might be entering deeper states for more effective downloading, as it were. but i also question how well rested we all really are. the stressors in all of our lives at this time are immense. one of my deepest desires right now would be to take two, three weeks off, and go somewhere to be catered to, to sleep as much as is possible, and to heal. to deeply heal. shangri-la perhaps?!

of course i sense this is just a longing for "home", wherever, whichever density it is that i wandered from. nonetheless, the amount of rest and healing we all need as we try to consciously balance in this rapidly changing "reality" cannot be underestimated, and, given the slightest opportunity, will intrude on my life in an instant. zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz.

i have only had one encounter, during sleep in an out-of-body type state, that i might construe as having been visitation. alien or not, i couldn't tell, but then again, it's a universe. it's one. so they're all kin, one way or another. but at the time, now nearly thirty years ago, it scared the excrement near out of me. a different kind of out-of-the-body experience.

anyway, they were just bright white spheres of light. what was really scary was that there was a scream accompanying them, that started low and quiet but rapidly and uncomfortably grew louder and higher pitched, until i managed to scramble back into my body consciousness and wake up.

twenty minutes later when i tried to return to sleep it instantly happened again.

these many years later though, while not yet having the experience again and actually working through the fear, i understand that the fear was entirely mine. there was no menace of any sort. criminy, they were two white spheres is all. the "screaming" i consider now to have likely been the dissonance between myself in 3d and whatever was visiting from 4d, 6d, wherewhatwhenever. but the fear was mine.

next time, i hope to appropriately announce myself as an awakening eternal being of light working in service to others ala the law of one, and to ask "who the heck be you and what do you represent?!" three times would likely be good.

then...who knows.

bless you all for your sharing, stand in the light, and graciously decline them negative greetings, if that is what they are.

remember, fear is the mind killer.