now i know why i am aware, its because we will shift to this new wonderful totally awesome new world where i don't have to contemplate over why time passes or fun things end. everday ill be awesome and ever since i woke up to the fact that i am the creator, and everyone else are different experiences of me, just like i am a different experience of you, because we are all one, i really can't be sad. i'm just waiting for this shift to occur and realise that until it happens i can spread peace and help others awake.