[Jourgenz]

i've had two experiences ~ only two ~ in many years of meditation practice, but they were both so very profound that i will never doubt the 'we are one' thing again. (i kind of imagine it like being many cells in one body, etc)

one time i was walking in the woods and the other time (few years later) i was standing in the hallway of a house on my way somewhere. in both instances, i had just come out of a very long, very deep and wonderful meditation in which i was focused on the entirety of 'everything' and just chillin' with the bliss, as it were. anyway, the experience that came over me in those two instances is impossible to accurately describe but the best i can say it is that i - my entire being/mind/consciousness, etc - became a window for a moment through which a massive eye was looking through. the overwhelming gigantic-ness of this massive consciousness is just so much more than i can ever express. but it was unmistakable; someone was looking through my identity to observe the physical world, and boy was it weird. in the moment, an incredible thrill went through me ~ i stared up at the trees just so amazed at how small i was in that little human body there on the grass - and later in the hallway it was an even shorter glimpse but the thrill was the same.

i believe that 'window' is what/who we are and that giant eye is always looking through us but we just usually aren't aware of it. if you think of breath as the giant eye (haha, no i have not eaten any mushrooms or smoked anything funny...) you can see how it can breathe its attention into and through any window it chooses at any given moment. and it is doing that at every moment, all the time! so it seems to me that we are perspectives.... each from a unique viewpoint, sending data back to the main brain .

it has been my experience that the more i draw upon the breath of the "giant all being" (whoever that is) the more love/peace/joy etc i can 'breathe into' any situation, bad or good. because even though i've only felt that "giant someone" through my own (unique individual awareness) twice, that was enough for me to believe without a doubt that it is going on all the time. (this watching and experience through us)

now where this leaves the individual, i am not certain.i have lots of ideas, some days i think i 'got it' while other days i am not so sure at all. knowing i am just another 'form' for the 'all-seeing eye' to look through has made me crazy with questions more than anything!