[Janarealiti]

hi spiral,

if you think about it, you'll realize that the only objective proof that you have of anyone's existance is you own. by all accounts of even the most modern research and theories, it is only through your mind, and your five sense, which you observe and experience the external world. since it is possible to stimulate the mind into seeing, hearing, smelling, tasting or feeling things that are "not really there", you can easily see that everthing that happens could be "self stimulated" and is happening only within your mind.

now, to be sure there is an awful lot that is happening in that mind of yours (or mine, perhaps i should say). not the least of which is an overwhelming conviction that all these other things exist and are separate from us.

i recall that at about age 4 or 5, i developed a fantasy that there were only two people in the entire world - me and my father. i came to believe that my father was actually moving from place to place, person to person, event to event, time to time, at speeds faster than i could see, and was acting out all the other parts in the drama of my life. the belief was empowering in that i came to view every interraction with someone else as an interraction with my father playing a role, and as an opportuntiy to learn from him. as a teenager, i tried to find the underlying truth behind this "feeling" and it led my on my spiritual journey.

i think now that this "father" was a mental personification of my higher self, actively taking a role in setting up the events that i needed to experience.

so, for me at any rate, the idea that there were only two of us here came at a very early age. the realization that we two were one, followed fairly easily by my late teens.

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