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wow this is a good read! what they were saying made sense to me for the most part. i had a few qualms, its easy for me accept my own suffering with no problem at all. i can see how the world is your mirror, i try to use this knowledge to see into myself

on the same day i listened to the blog, i was on campus and came across a starving squirell that was literally a sack of bones, so weak he could only walk a few inches then lay down in the blazing heat. i was torn as to what to do, let "nature take its course" in the middle of a fragmented forest habitat with no predators on a college campus? or pick him up, put him in my bag and maybe get bit and risk rabies. so i rode as fast as i could back home (2 miles) to get a kennel. i came back and he was gone.

i realized in this experience even if its an illusion it was real for that squirrel, god still invested that much thought into that moment and his existance. i wont deny that. i know this experience was put in my path to show me i cant always help. or how indecisive i am at times like this.

i made the decison to help at first because i expected a good outcome, i was focused on the fruits of my decision. now that i look at it i realize that i should decide to be of service regardless of the outcome. i now am content with that decision. i pray that he has beeen reunited with the oneness and is no longer in anguish.

4d is about opening your heart, i try not to understand god. i accept the illusion, and try to help in any way i can.