[janeseymore09092]

remember, its not about lifting yourself above this world, its about taking the whole enchilada with you - as the enchilada is you. that's what the law of one is about - coming gradually to operate as being integral with, inseparable, and eventually indistinguishable from your environs/fellow man/universe.

separateness derives (at least in part) from training, at a very young age, about the concept of personal space. "stop touching me!" "leave me alone!" "give me some room." stuff like that. as we grow up and develop more sophisticated identities, we learn to keep our personal space in a harmonious state. we feel at peace within it. when someone comes along and messes with our space, we get our feathers all ruffled. it is disrupted.

this leads us, especially those of us who are trying to "peek ahead" at spiritual/metaphysical developments soon to come, that we are "ahead" of average joe. we look at the antics of base 3d behavior, whether locally or globally, and feel almost disgusted with it. we'd never be like that. we're the good guys. well maybe little spots here & there, but we're working on that, by golly, and we hope to keep that progress on track so we'll be as clean as ivory snow come 2012. those other lackeys might get left behind, poor sods. but we're good guys, so we'll help'em out as we can. because we care.

but now, the picture is changing for us. those poor sods are us. they are us in another guise. different pieces of the same puzzle. different beans in the same enchilada. and come 2012-time, it's not just ourselves we're supposed to be concerned with, it's the whole enchilada. it's not exactly an all-or-none dimensional shift where we either all make it or we all fail, but at the same time, it kind of is, too. even the loo material makes references to the world population, or at least a huge majority of it, being in-tune with the whole shift process in order for us to pull it off properly.

when i immerse myself into a crowd, whether at a ballgame stadium or in the midst of a student throng commuting between buildings on campus, and i try to key in to this 'we are all one' thing at close range. maybe it's just my scheming ego at work, but i don't usually feel anything remotely like them at all. i find myself fighting urges to put some distance between their lower vibrations and my harmonious sense of personal space, where i can breathe easier again. the 'separation' gap is a wide one.

yet once i get some distance away and find my peace again, i can indeed sense the oneness factor, and aspire to positively influence them all by accessing and contributing to our universal mind, and its thought processes. i think stuff up, and wouldn't ya know it, within six months it's in print somewhere.

with the forgiveness/acceptance factor in play, i guess i have to bring myself to be more comfortable being them, or at least being near them. they are me, and if i find myself seeking a sense of privacy away from them, or a greater sense of personal space apart from them, then i'm just really grasping at separation, which is the opposite of the oneness feeling we're supposed to be shooting for.

tough stuff for the personal growth agenda.

buggers, too, because i thought forgiveness alone was a tall order. earlier on, i was looking very much forward to a playout of justice in our futures. good guys rewarded, wrongdoers punished, that kinda thing. but with total forgiveness on our plates, justice becomes kind of meaningless. anyone who did you wrong, or even terribly wrong, in life is just another face of god playing that role to teach you a lesson about yourself. dispensing with justice has been tough on me, but i'm slogging through it with baby steps (pity to all those poor libras out there, with their innate yearning for fairness & justice!).

now i have to go hug them all too, and enmesh myself with them, and bring about a sense of oneness with them because they are all part of me.

i used to joke with my girlfriend about how "we'll all be playing volleyball with them in the afterlife"... bush, cheney, stalin, hitler, genghis khan, or any villain you'd care to name. i used to say "it'll be me & bush against you & cheney". that never failed to bristle the hairs on her neck.

but now... i gotta eat those words, because not only will we be volleyball buddies... we'll be the same persona within our oneness.

my skin's itchin' already.

at least i've got 4 more years to struggle with integrating that concept. thank god for time! :d


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