[Fainnamoony]

hello jane!!

welcome to the dc forums we are so happy to have you here

i have also struggled with alcohol as well as pot for the past 10 plus years. i finally have the pot under control and i thought i had the alcohol as well but i have learned that part of spiritual growth means that issues are brought up that you think you may have resolved but need more work. i've had life changes and new social situations going on lately and have been drinking more than usual (i normallly have a a few drinks socially but not more than one an hour and not that often) like turtle said drinking isnt a "bad" thing its when it becomes an addiction or is masking another problem that it becomes an issue. i have been realizing that the drinking is used to mask a fear of being rejected by my peers. i use it as a crutch so i can be more outgoing. i have come to realize that i am already a beautiful, funny, amazing being as we all are and i dont need alcohol i just have to learn to bring myself out of my shell on my own. i t isnt easy but i have no choice because the path of chronic drinking is one that i dont want to tred again

im telling you all this so that you may feel less alone in your struggle. my prayers are with you and i have complete faith that you will learn what you need to and overcome alcohol if thats what you so choose

sending you love and light