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thank you so much for such wonderfull replies

i gave it even more thought these days, and here's what i found out:

the fact that i am challenging those beliefs, is that i have a detaild arguments to prove my opinions, but the people start to make up stupid excuses, wich have no meaning even to them, but only to justify their ideals. this is when i get angry, and, since they are actually convincing me that the "grass is yellow", i start to disporove their oppinons. by the time i actually have proven my point, they feel bad, cos they can't preve me wrong. and i wont let them.

the problem is, that most people are not objective at all, and get attached to things and ideals. i mean, if anyone would come to me right now, and prove me that david w, or the law of one is wrong, and if the argumen was as half as good as the ones i use agains those stupid ideals, then by all means i would admit it, and say, yes, the law of one is wrong.

so it comes to this, that this is not my mystake, but theirs, cos they are the ones that are convincing themselves and myself something that deosnt make sense even to them. but they litherally brainwash themselves, and make believe. so again, this is then their fault.

however, i should realize that if i am in any way more objective, more self sufficent, more spirtuall or whatever, that all this is exactley the way it's supose to be, and that by not respecting their limitations and stupidity, i actually am wrong.

cos, maybe i don't know how many lifetimes before, i was probobaly like that. so we can't blaim them.

very little people can drop their belifs the same moment they are proven wrong. i personaly can, and did, and will if necesery. and all becose i'm not attached to anything. if my mother was a whore (and she was very close to that, but thats another story), i would admit it, i wouldnt pretend like it's not true, and make stupid excuses.

there is one truth, and we all can realize it. it's just that the limitations i just mentinoed, are preventing us from understaing it.

and again and again... i should unerstand it. and let them be like that. thats my problem, cos it's hard.

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sorry for being so emotional here, but i think all i said was from the heart, no matter how emotional it may have sounded. i hope somebody found somthing at least valuable in all this.

i love you all
dino