[Efonukmp]

hi there.

i noticed something rather weird about me, but it kinda worries me.

i would actually be eaten alive from feeling bad after i would accidentally hurt an animal, or refuse to help somebody, but at the same time, i would feel no guilt at all to attack somebody who is acting illogical and and who is making himself believe some things which can not be.

this mostly applies to the people who are not open minded and who refuse intelligent arguments for the sake of their beliefs, and make all sorts of stupid arguments just to justify their beliefs. i'd feel no guilt at all to smite them to the ground, no matter how they feel. and this kinda scares me, cos i actually am not valuing the free will by doing so.

but how can this be? i know i am very compassionate, but when somebody is insulting my intelligence (like lots of common christian floks), i actually feel bad if i don't explode.

but again, the free will.. whats wrong with me?

somethings not right, huh?

dino

gee whiz, dino...and i thought you were a nice-a kinda guy!

maybe this will help some by putting your life trials in proper perspective:

"what we call trials are merely a series of problems during the course of our life that we have to resolve, just as school children or university students are given problems to solve and then given more difficult ones as they progress. of course, the time always comes for them to leave school or university, but no one ever leaves the school of life. so, the exercises and efforts humans have to make during the course of their life are endless. instead of complaining and rebelling at having to bear yet another load and overcome yet another obstacle, they should first of all understand the cause and significance of these trials and then be glad they have new experiences to try and new truths to discover, for these experiences and truths are the only true riches. " omraam mikhaël aïvanhov

that insight from omraam' society came just in time to fit your need...obviously an example of spiritual serendipity!

so, dino, your chosen mission to work on is obviously to develop more tolerance and compassion for relative idiots. until you achieve some mastery in this sphere these types of people will keep on coming into your life circle --over and over back again-- until you finally get this particular lesson right.

okay?

hey! you are doing okay. its bit by bit, not mountain by mountain... think about it ... these people are doing you a big favor. they don't know why, but they are responding to your spiritual call for helpful practice.

yes, you are doing just fine! bbb:d