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i just gave it even more thought today! and i found out something very very interesting!

it appears that my councience really does show up on steroids when i try to destroy some peoples ideals, but not with everyone!

now thats strange, cos, those are all random people! and guess what i also found out. those people where i would feel guilty and feel are all what you would call younger souls. really!!

i had at least 15 situations i can rember where i tried to explain them that their views are wrong, and i would feel so bad that in some cases i wouldnt be able to sleep!!

so its kinda like i'm not supose to be doing that with some people (cos they're probobaly not supose to be knowing all this), while with some people i'm perfectly ok with doing it?

now watch this!

if i woldn't say what i intend to those people i am supose to, and keep myself from doing it, i would feel inceredibely bad, and guilty, same as when i would talk to those people who i'm not supose to!

now how about that??

what if... and i am saying what if... what if i am supose to be like that?? what if i am supost to chalenge those peoples ideas?

look at it this way... what i am doing, is that i am presenting to those people another view, which of course makes more sense then their view, and then what happens is that they just kill them selves while fighting with their own thoughts, reason, belief and whatever more...

so in a way, i am presenting them the things that they keep lying to themselves. and this makes them feel bad, cos they cant stand the truth.

how guilty can i be, if all i'm doing is giving them the truth, they keep away from them while brainwashing and lying to themselves?

so, all i'm doing is letting them know the truth. and it's their problem and their fault they can't stand it.

now, when you look at it this way, isn't it that the higer self is actually doing the same thing?? think about it.

also, when i tried to speak with my higher self, i felt a very strong tingling kudanlini feeling in my back. i have it very often, and it always guides me.

i also got 11:11 syncronisities, and a few songs just opened up in my winamp playlist which mean a lots of postive stuff to me. one of them actually describes this situation very well, and descirbes someone who fights for justice.

all this seems to be telling me that what i'm doing is actually allright!

now that's wierd.