[kilibry]

last night i got my "bat signal" to meditate before bed. this is when i'm sitting down or relaxing, usually watching tv or reading and i'll catch a white flash in my upper peripheral vision. i interpret this as a kind of sign to go sit down somewhere and quiet down and wait.

anyway, last night i got the signal, cleaned up the dishes from supper, brushed my teeth, and sat down on my bed to meditate, going through all the usual protocols (declaring that i open myself only to the one infinite creator, asking and giving permission for the "mantle of christ" to be placed around me for protection, etc.).

almost immediately upon silencing my thoughts i began to get my kundalini shudders. anybody who has this will know what i'm talking about; anybody who doesn't need only keep meditating and you will soon enough. this time however, i was able to not get distracted from the silence while they came for probably the first time (usually they blast through me and derail the meditation) and i felt something new: i could feel myself opening like a big upright tube and like, tons more energy started to come in.

and i realized: the silence is like the dead man's switch on a lawnmower. as long as you can maintain it, your energy body (i think) can open and receive inspiration, energy, whatever it is that comes down the cosmic "pipe." but if you lose focus, the switch is released and the connection closes.

i think i'll be meditating more regularly from here on out. :d